Oops guys, I missed yesterday’s post.
I KNEW I would at some point, but I must’ve been in a very highly optimistic state when I committed to daily posts throughout January.
The fact is, that life gets so busy. By the end of the week, I have a dozen pieces of homework and three tests piled up, as well as a zillion other things I need to do – it’s just a fact. Yesterday was in no way different. But it’s okay. Friday’s over. My English exam today was good. And it’s now the week-end, so let’s rejoice in that blissful feeling!
I’m such a bad blogger, and I know I say this a lot, but it is so damn true. So many bloggers spend hours planning their posts, making each one interesting and compelling to the eye, and then taking a day out of their hectic schedule to take photographs to compliment the post – all BEFORE they spend three hours writing the actual words. And for that I am in awe. I look up to you and congratulate you at putting in so much hard work, and it paying off. You deserve it.
I, on the other hand, am not like that. I don’t plan my posts. Well very little. Sometimes I might take a mental note, or tap it into notes. I don’t take photos specifically for a post – if I think something relates I might insert it, but not frequently.
And the worst part. I ACTUALLY start writing without even KNOWING what I’m writing about.
Like, um, now for example. (COUGHS heavily to try and hide that awful fact you just heard).
But yeah it’s true. And yeah, I feel a bit guilty about it. But the fact remains that I don’t care. And I’m not going to change that.
I started blogging as an outlet. A way to explore my creativity, which I do in posts which require more effort. But I also use it as a way to get out what’s in my head, and make me feel calmer. So sometimes I just sit down, and I type. Like now.
This post has no direction. No inclination of where it is heading.
And I actually like that. I know it’s rather boring for you, but I LIKE it. I enjoy it. It HELPS me. And although I absolutely love all of your support, and would not be where I am today without it, I have to keep reminding myself that the reason I do all this blogging thing is for MYSELF. I don’t do it for fame, or for recognition – I’m anonymous. Although this sounds selfish and uncaring, I don’t do it to entertain you – although I do write posts with that aim occasionally.
I do it for myself. As I’m sure you do too.
So I’m going to keep going with my ways, and continue being the world’s worst blogger. If you’re alright with that, then please stick around. I’m happy to have you in my journey!
Going back to the start of the post, I mentioned how busy life gets. Sometimes we all have so many things on our to-do lists. But is ALL of it necessary? Sure, often it might be. But I also find, more frequently than not, that a lot of things on my mental to-do list aren’t actually for the needs of myself. They’re for other people. To satisfy others, rather than me.
Think about it. If you cut back on all the little things which you don’t need to satisfy yourself, how much shorter would your to-do list be? Would anything at all be removed? Quartered? Halved?
I know for certain mine wouldn’t be the length that it is.
And I’m NOT saying you shouldn’t do that thing for your mate. Or that thing to help someone else. That is all very, very important. But what I’m saying, is that you can only do so much before it becomes bad for your health. If you’re so over-weighed with things to do that there’s no moment for you to take a breath, then something has to be done.
And it doesn’t make you a bad person for putting yourself first.
So next time you’re freaking out over how much you have to do, put it in an order. Start with what you NEED to do. Then what you WANT. Message your mate and ask if that thing can be done at the weekend instead. Work out what is actually necessary. And keep some time left over for yourself – to relax, to go on a walk, to clear you head, whatever YOU need to keep yourself sane.
If you’re one of those people with your life organised, and your to-do list at two things long, then I’m sorry for wasting your time with this very meaningless post. But maybe you can help some-one else in the comments.
End of Post.
L0L. My writing always ends up in such a different place to how I’m expecting it to. Not that I had a plan anyway (Trying to stop myself from typing the word I’m sorry) – AGhh.
I’m going to leave you now. Go do something fun. Take a break from your laptop, and go for a walk. Or bake a cake. Draw a picture. ANYTHING.
I hope you have a lovely weekend (WOOPDEDOO IT’S FRIDAY!!!!!). Have you got anything nice planned?
Love, Em x
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