1 in 4 people will experience some form of mental illness throughout their lives.
And it angers me so, so much, when people raise views about people like me.
I’ve been told before that I’m faking. That I’m just seeking attention. That I’m fake.
I’ve been around others, who make fun of other people for ‘faking’.
So let me ask you, what is YOUR definition of some-one who’s faking?
Me scrunched in a ball, tears flowing down my cheeks, panic rising, the fear overwhelming. To me, it is all extremely real. At that moment in time, I don’t bloody care what you are thinking, or what you’re saying. I care about getting out alive. Sometimes I think I might not make it. Are you telling me that all those feelings, I’m creating for attention?
Believe me. Anyone who has ever experienced a mental health illness will KNOW how horrible, how awful and how terrible it is to have to live through one.
So to say that we are faking, makes it all a hundred times worse.
We don’t fake our anxiety. Or our panic attacks. Or the way we’re feeling. Or the temptation to hurt ourselves. Or our depression. Or our OCD. Or our ADHD. I’m not saying I have all those issues, but ‘we’ are ‘we’, because we all experience similar things and none of us are alone. I don’t fake ANY of it. None of us do. Okay?
For you to say that I, or any of us, are faking, means you are insulting a quarter of the population, including famous figures who you look up to. Including possibly you, one-day.
People often say that some-one who is self-harming is just seeking attention. How can this be true? To do that, there must be something in their life causing them to feel that way. So, they do it. And MAYBE they want the attention, because inside they are screaming for help, that they are not okay and that they need someone to notice. MAYBE they figure that this is the way for some-one to realise they are struggling. That’s not seeking attention. That’s seeking HELP.
Never, ever tell me I’m faking.
You’d hate to be me.
Maybe ONE-DAY you’ll experience it too, so be careful what you say.
Love, Em x